Everyone has been wondering where I've been and what I've been up to recently, as I haven't been posting very much. I did say in the last post I had some bad news, and I couldn't announce it at the time. It's really bad, depressing news, the kind where you just think you're living in a nightmare and hope to wake up any minute. And then you realize you're not going to wake up, no matter how much you want to. On August 15, David - my 21-year-old brother and best friend in the entire world - passed away. It was so unexpected, it still feels unreal to me, even to this day, so I had to take some time off from work. I am so fortunate to be self employed, to be able to take off the time I need during times like this.
I had spent some time out of state for the funeral, and when I got back I found I was really depressed and had very little motivation. David was very close to my family - me, my daughter, and husband - he lived with us in Alaska in his teens, he even went to college with me and we took classes together. Since he graduated college and moved in 2006, he'd called me nearly every night, and we'd talk for a few hours, and it's what I looked forward to each evening - telling him about my day, the good and the bad. Something I can no longer do, which makes this an even harder time for me.
Although I have not been doing much illustration, I have been using my creativity in other ways. I've learned how to use movie-editing software (which will certainly come in handy when applied to creative work later) to take clips of home videos and make presentable movies for David's Memorial Website, something I created for him as a remembrance.
It's been a very rough six weeks. I'd like to thank those of you that knew for your thoughts, concern, and kind words these past few weeks. My brother was such a special person. He was so funny, kind and exceptionally smart - he had a college degree at age 19 - and it is so hard without him. I will miss him every day for the rest of my life.
I'd like to thank you for dropping by today. I hope you have a happy and safe first weekend of October. I'll be sure to share my upcoming work and creative progress with you, so check back soon.